Seven months into traveling I through my hands in their air & went on a digital detox.
Simply, I went on a digital detox because I didn’t want to be addicted to my phone anymore. More complicatedly, you can read an unedited excerpt from my personal journal written on March 29th that will help you understand how I was feeling.
“I’m 20 minutes into checking social media & the anxiety begins. It feels like I’m being rushed or I need to do something but I don’t know what. It feels stressful. I can’t explain why I feel anxious on social media, maybe because I worked in digital marketing for 2 years- who knows.
Social media started to become a job for me. I overthought every comment & every post. It became overwhelming with very underwhelming results. I’m taking a break from it to regain a sense of what I want to say, what I want to share & why I am even using social media in the first place.
Sharing my experiences with my friends & family shouldn’t feel like work, but it was. The term, “do it for the Insta” became my life. I started going to certain places or doing activities I normally wouldn’t do for the picture. This is a problem for me. I want to do what I am passionate about & share those experiences, even if those experiences don’t produce the best blog post or perfect photo.”
I was trying so hard to be authentic, that I became fake.
I compared myself to every travel Instagram & blog. All I saw online were these perfectly fake lives & I didn’t want to be any part of it because my life isn’t fake & it’s far from perfect.
During my time away from the digital world, I reminded myself that I am out here growing, experiencing, learning & loving for myself. Not for Instagram or my blog. Those are fun tools that I can use to share these experiences, but “do it for the Insta” will never be a sentence in my life.
I am working toward finding a healthy balance of sharing my adventures and not having my memories ruined by the pressure of social media. Thank you for sticking with me during my digital detox! I am happy to say I am back & I can’t wait to share everything that has happened these past few months with you!