I have been in New York City for seven days now and it feels right.

I was going through a hard time this past year and this week showed me how much I’ve grown since living here last summer.

It took me a year to admit that I was not okay. It was hard to admit to myself that there was something wrong. I wasn’t myself, I didn’t like the person I was anymore. When I looked in the mirror I didn’t recognize the woman looking back at me. I knew it wasn’t me. It no longer felt natural to smile.

But, this summer I finally took action and started talking about it. I simply told a therapist and close friends that I didn’t feel the same. I explained to them how I was feeling and they held my hand through this vulnerable stage. I slowly began to return to myself.

If you don’t feel like yourself, just talk to someone about it. I know how hard it is to open yourself up and become vulnerable. But that is how you begin to heal. It feels good to be honest with yourself and with others. If I can write here and share about my struggles, then, I promise you, you can open up to a friend.

I have a long road ahead, but I see the light at the end of the tunnel. I’m thankful for my family and friends for supporting me when I didn’t know how to support myself. I have unconditional love for you all.

If anyone would like to talk to me about my healing process or share their experience, please reach out to me through social media or my email emt368@gmail.com