I traded the ocean for a river & beer for milk green tea.
Currently in Kampot, Cambodia.
This past week has been weird. It’s the first time I have been sober for more than 1 day in 8 weeks. Yes, I know how bad that sounds. Stop judging me & go read about my 2-month bender here.
After leaving island life, I had to readjust to making decisions again. Life was so easy on the island. Everything that I needed was available & free, it was relaxing, I was friends with everyone around me & I knew what I had to do each day. The only decision I had to make was deciding what to do during my time off. Coming out of that simple lifestyle to being completely independent again was a shock.
While I was readjusting to thinking about simple things like where I was going to stay at night or what I was going to eat for dinner, my body was also screaming at me. I drank non-stop for eight weeks. Do you know what that does to a body? It fucked my body is what it did. My muscles disappeared, I gained weight, my flexibility tightened up & worst of all, my body grew used to a substance- alcohol.
My first week out of shape & sober was weird. I stuck to myself for the most part. I had to readjust to life off the island. I was in bed by 10 every night, nervous that if I met someone cool I would be influenced to grab a beer with them. So, a lonely week commenced. I ran every day, went to yoga, stopped eating meat, went on a lot of walks, read, wrote & meditated. I am trying to jolt my body & mind back to normal.
& I guess it’s working!! Today I feel healthier & less anxious! I am not back to normal yet but I feel better. Cheers to sobriety!!!!